Today I have learned.....

that when you casts all of your anxieties and worries and thoughts and ambitions on the Lord, he will bless you SO much!

well, I guess I've known it for awhile, but actually got to see it happen recently.

Its a nice feeling you should try it.

i need to start blogging again...

for my devoted fans ;)

So I woke up this morning at 445am to go to Solid Rock for Bible Study @ 6am.
It is SO worth the lack of sleep and the waking up early.
The Lord has truly blessed Pastor Josh White with wisdom.
This morning he spoke about the things that "stain" our Great Commission for our Savior.
A lot of the things he said really ring true in my own daily struggles

He said one thing that really struck me: "If I can trust the Lord with my salvation, I should be able to trust Him with anything." Wow! Why can't I do that? He is the creator of the freakin' universe! He has NEVER once let me down. He always provides. He is constantly there for me to run back to when i stray away. Why can't I trust Him with every little thing in my life?

Another thing that ruins the commission that our Lord has called us to is passive aggressiveness/sarcasm. This is one of the many things I constantly fail at. We so easily fall prey to sarcasm and we don't even realize it. This is one thing I realized is a huge issue that most of us have working at TCBC struggle with and it is rarely dealt with. That is one of the man reason that I won't be going back this summer. Sarcasm is so shallow if you think about it. So often our snide little comments cut people really deep and if they take it a different way then we intended, we automatically judge them for it. We do not know what everyone is going through or dealing with and it is dangerous to assume or pretend to know. We should be unfailingly kind without thinking about what we get in return. They say that imitation is the highest form of flattery but I say love, compassion and sincerity are the highest forms of flattery.

And the last thing that I felt convicted about was about self pity/bitterness. I so often jump to me, me, me. Instead of focusing on God, God, God. Recently, especially with the low key Christmas I had, I have been noticing myself fishing for people sympathy and making everything about me. How can I follow Christ when my eyes are focused on myself? How can I call myself a Christ Follower?

Christ is the where we need to start, follow, and finish. He is the starting line, the path, and the goal.


May my words be Yours,
May You touch my lips,
Put the illumination of Moses on my face,
See my scarlet cord,
Make my desires echo Yours,
Saturate me in Your desire....


Watch out....The Great I AM has sent me.

My desire is for my heart to beat in synchronizing beats with His. I want my life to harmonize perfectly with His. I want to walk blamelessly in His spirit. I want to die to myself daily. I want them to see Him in me. I want His blood pumping through my veins.

I want the fullness, completeness, perfectness, gentleness, peace, strength, goodness, and patience of Him.

So how do I do it?
I don't just want the thunder to sound. I want the strike of lightning to back it up.

"Faith is permitting ourselves to be seized by the things we do not see."
- Martin Luther

Czech

As you may have heard, I will be going to the Czech Republic this July for a mission trip. We'll helping a local youth group run a camp where we teach them English and the Gospel.

Unfortunately, my funds are not coming in very well at all. I have about $2400 left to raise in the next 3 weeks. For some odd reason, a lot of people didn't get my support letters that I sent out.

So if you would like to be praying for me, that'd be GREAT! And if you would like to support me, ust let me know :)

11 DAYS!

til camp starts!

I really desperately need to pass math because I DO NOT want to take it again next year! Please be praying that I can pass math and finish my school year strong because as of now, my mind is set on TCBC.

mother's day...

:/